Hey there Facebook world. It's me Chris. I hope you are doing well. I wanted to take a moment and express some real emotions I keep locked away for a rainy day. Well, today it has been raining a little.
Many of you know about my previous story before this update. I was once 407 pounds and at the tail end of a short life filled with bad relationships, bad food and horrible self esteem. I decided to turn a switch on in my life by learning about nutrition, training and business filled with passion. Learning those 3 key things allowed me to drop 150 pounds and become a Nationally known professional photographer. I also found the perfect woman in my fiance' Jessica Pickard. She is the light that keeps shining, even in my dark days.
So why this update?
Well, I would like to say that life continued to be perfect and amazing, but it has not been all rainbows and cotton candy. I feel writing this will be very therapeutic in myself and the changes I need to make.
I was looking back on the last few years of my life as I thumped through all of the images I have posted on Facebook. It has really opened my eyes to some of the weaknesses I face on a daily basis. I feel these weaknesses have contributed to some of the stresses and weight gain I have been experiencing in the last year. The last time I did an update on my weight loss I went from 407 pounds all the way down to 234 pounds. I was strong and focused. Today, I currently weigh 285 pounds.
Is this a pitty party in my honor?
No, I am taking this approach for one reason only. I want to have something (for the future me) to look back on, like I did today. It was very tough to see a thinner and happier me and know that I am letting him down. I want the future me to look back on this with much more power and strength than I had today.
So what weaknesses are you talking about?
BUSINESS & RELATIONSHIPS
I grew up never being wanted, approached or desired by anyone. Genuine friendships were scarce. It was an alien feeling for me if it ever happened. I responded oddly to any that came along.
Having my looks and personality deflect people was bittersweet. It allowed me to spend a good portion of my life learning about who I am and wish to become. It allowed me to become the businessman I am today. I am a great businessman. I only wish to become someone that is capable of more human relationships.
worked very hard to become the photographer I am today. I love being a photographer. It ignites a passion inside of me that burns endlessly. It is all I ever think about when I am alone. I am now standing on top of this amazing business structure with overwhelming challenges, deadlines and responsibilities. I have become attached to it so much that I forgot to give a little time for me to continue working on my weaknesses.
I look forward to the future.
I look forward to love.
I look forward to being inspired.
I look forward to losing weight again.
I look forward to amazing photo shoots.
I look forward to meeting the future me.
I want him to kick my @$$.
Chris Withers Photography